Winter

 

 

I dont know

if it's winter or summer

My wings are chilled

but soul is burnt on fire

 

I dont know

if you can see me or see it

yes, baby, it is me flaming

in the sky with dust flying

 

I dont care

if you love me or hate me

are you listening

the song says I've been waiting

 

I dont mind

to fly through another storm

and disremember where I was going

things changed are changing

 

I dont want

this endless solitude

this meaningless screaming

this torn-apart dreaming

 

I dont want

this endless solitude

this endless waiting

this fucked up waiting

 

 

VOL. 4 Never Never

 

I could not spend another night at bar with Mr.Denn. Too many comedy jokes and so much fun. People started to question me what I could do. Well, hell new yorkers, let me bring up a crazy jazz. "A song to a girl I ever loved and love..." I always brought this quote up while sending nictation to the bartender girl, in order to get my next whiskey for free...or things might not work in that way...

 

You're a no good, heartbreaker
You're a liar, you're a cheat
And I don't know why

I let you do these things to me

 

My friends keep telling me that you ain't no good
Oh well, I'd leave you if I could
I guess I'm on tight
And I'm stuck like glue
Cuz I ain't never
I ain't never, I ain't never

never never
Loved a girl the way that I
I love you

Sometimes I know I thought
You would run out of food
But I was so wrong
You got the one you'll never lose
The way you treat me is shame
How could you hurt me so bad
baby you know that I'm the best thing that you ever had
Kiss me once again
Don't you never never say that we're through
Cuz I ain't never
never never
Loved a girl the way that I
I love you

I can't sleep at night

and I can't eat a bite
And I guess I'll never be free
Since you got your hooks in me

 

I ain't never loved a girl

I ain't never loved a girl
never never loved a girl

the way that I

I love you

 

 

VOL. 3 Stacie in Brooklyn

 

I finally know why I'd rather to go to a movie on a date than anything else. We do not have to talk in hours; I do not have to hear her bitching; I don't have to share a single piece of my mind with a woman. Brooklyn made me drunk many times because I prefer to leave my memory on what I paid for. Let's make it Christmas, Stacie. Let's make love through this coldness. But still, please do not make any noise.

 

I don't need a cab to go back

in my glass I see the map

I can just walk along Bedford

and find a bed for devil.

 

Stacie this is the Brooklyn

let's sleep and hearing the rainin

tell me that is really rainin

not some girl next door cryin

I can love you but I can't love you

I can need you but I can't need you

 

Well I don't need a cab to go back

yet  roadway lights are out of whack

I can just return on the Bedford

buy a drink and remember no more

 

Stacie this is your Brooklyn

god knows this place means nothing

so it was the damn raining

there was no one cryin

 

I can leave but I can't leave

I can breathe but I can't breathe

 

All I need is another drink

before fucked up take another walkin

All I need is another Brooklyn

not you Stacie, not you honey.

 

 

VOL. 2 Saving Me

 

We were unleashed and ran onto 101 Freeway. Nickelback brought this song thru the radio. It's cold outside. It's cold inside. It reminded me prison break. I may pack up tonight to head to Ness Loch; I have to stay driving along, I mean alone.

 

Prison gates won't open up for me
On these hands and knees I'm crawling
Oh, I reach for you
Well I'm terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can't hold my soul in
All I need is you
Come please I'm calling
And I scream for you
Hurry! I'm falling, I'm falling

Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
And say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

Heaven's gates won't open up for me
With these broken wings I'm falling
And all I see is you
These city walls ain't got no love for me
I'm on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And oh, I scream for you
Come please I'm calling
And all I need from you
Hurry! I'm falling, I'm falling

Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing

And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
And say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me
Hurry I'm calling

And all I need is you
Come please! I'm calling
And I scream for you
Hurry! I'm falling, I'm falling, I'm falling

 

 

 VOL. 1  Californian Rain

 

It was a rainy day when I moved to my first apartment in Los Angeles. Highway was surrounded by white steam - the heat out of vehicles shuttling along their ways. No mantter how fast the blades brushed, the road was blurred. I opened the window next to me, waiting for the raindrops taking my heat away - maybe - the smell as well.

 

 

This is my Californian rain

no one can enjoy my sky

I can hear the whisper

along with every mile

 

It's the sound of rain

that I have been waiting

It's the sound of rain

that keeps people driving

 

This is my Californian rain

it is cold but not quite

kiss come and gone

can't wait for asking why

 

It's the smell of rain

brings up the smell of memory

It's the smell of rain

takes away the smell of memory

 

This is my Californian rain

I wish for a little wind

This is my Californian rain

I just need a little wind